No plz

Just you wait

I put my faith into dadi Igor

Seriously? Is this really what people are like when people mention death?

You must live!

Why? With Trump as the president and the deal with North Korea and other political conflicts I don't know about, it's just not a world worth living in. Besides, people act like shit to each other and no one's to stop them. Overall, if I continued to live I can only extend the knowledge of other terrible things this world has to offer.

Live to be able to eat pancakes an another day!

Then you have shitty memes! Drown your sorrows

Live to change the world.

No politics Mona

The memes only deepen my pain. Because they only make fun of those same problems, while also making me face them in every outlet of media.

I can't change the world

So you say but even now you make a difference. Don't focus on the now focus on the future. You've got a life and this by far has no way of changing that. Every small action brings about a change and that change eventually hits the world

You claim it hits the world, but what is this based off of?

Clearly you don't get it yet. One small action is forever ingrained in those who see its heads. They continue to act with our without knowledge of that action. Gradually that action is spread throughout the people until it becomes a new norm. Tell me, what do you hope for your life? What do you aspire to do if this global shitshow blows over? Living is one of those things you have to do. If you die you miss out on all the opportunities for something better.

Why can't someone else do that? Opportunities for something better? Like what? I don't believe there's any way to feel joy anymore.

Honestly, the world has always been a terrible place and sadly that isn't changing anytime soon. It's overbearing when you consider yourself against the world, but remember that you are only one.

As you are one, look out for yourself, do what you want to do, live in the moment if that makes you feel better. People put nasty labels on things like selfishness, hedonism and nihilism, but if your ego is weak you'll just be at the world's mercy. Fuck the world. The world starts with you, as only you can see through your own eyes. You only get one life, so don't be afraid to be selfish. Before you can help others, and the world, you need to help yourself first and be uninhibitedly you. You are your own persona.

If you can't change the world, make the world your own. Find your own meaning in life and live for that. Heroes don't exist, only egos. And your ego is especially unique to you.

Life is only what you make it in the end, so don't chain yourself. Be you.

I can't answer life's problems only offer encouragement. You'll get through this funk with a stronger sense of self than ever. If you died now wouldn't you have regrets? Things you wanted to do? Wrongs you wanted to right? These questions are what keep me going. Day in day out. Death shouldn't be used as an easy out. It should be a conclusion to a life well lived.

You're right, Adachil, I should only care about myself. I tried to fool myself and convince myself that I should live to help others. When in reality, I'm the most important thing to me.