Every so often someone had asked me in PMs "Hey are you okay? You always seem sick or something" and I just shrug it off with a I'm fine and hide behind the personal barriers I build just because I'm not actually talking to people I know personally. The same thing happens when I'm at school as well. I'll hide behind this happy mask and I'm quick to retrieve it if someone asks me how I'm feeling. These past few days I've just felt. Apathetic to things and I'm probably not going to find the courage to post this, I just need to write it out. I love interacting on here and I've just retreated into my shell and haven't been totally honest with myself. I'm OK, I'm not gonna use fine because I'm not. Don't worry about me have suicidal thoughts or anything. Its not that severe it's just exhausting to always pretend to be happy go lucky wherever I am. It's probably a passing phase but it's not fair to leave everyone in the dark. If you read all this, Thanks. Every time I'm on here it always brings a genuine smile to my face, whether it's a simple meme, or a conversation I love every minute I'm on this site.