I used to have this 3-person friend group, I will call the 2 other girls Makoto and Yutaba, (because one has almost the exact same personality as Makoto, and the other is a mix of Yusuke's brutal honesty and artistic skills and Futaba's weebness and quirkiness. Yutaba actually has the exact same birthday as Yusuke. So you can blame my friends for my grudge against Makoto, why I think Futaba is best girl, and my unhealthy love for Yusuke. God, I love Persona 5.)
So in 4th and 5th grade, we would sit under the playground and talk about Minecraft nonstop. Those were the good days. Me and Makoto were especially close. We would always text eachother and we would come to eachothers houses.
However, during the end of 5th grade, I hit puberty and became extremely jealous of Makoto. I became kinda cold to her because of all of her accomplishments that year. And I hate myself for that.
Meanwhile, me and Yutaba became much closer, however, we had to part ways during middle school. Me and Makoto were back on track by then, but then we would be cold to eachother again. And then we would be friends again, and at the beginning of this school year, we would part ways one last time from our friendship. I gotta admit I hate myself for starting all of this drama and I feel like a really bad friend. It's really awkward between us.
I also have other friends, but we are not close.
Right now, I don't feel lonely, because of Yutaba. She is dependable, she helps me improve, she is the best-est friend I could ever have. She is what I call a "true friend."