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OOC: I've lost control of my life
I just had a doctor's visit and well....I am at an irreversible point. I just can't deal with life and im Always being told that I have "video game addiction" because I do play a lot, all day on weekends and from 3 to 9 on weekdays after school because I can't do anything else but walk and feel sorry for myself. I am not active and have very little drive to actually be active. Im 5'9 and just got weighed.,291 pounds. I just.....I have no real options anymore. Im not gonna kill myself or anything like that. But, the only thing I do is attentionseek and feel sorry for myself.....I just have no clue what to do anymore. It's not just mental either, that sight disease I mentioned in the last vent thread prevents me from playing almost any sport, so does my depression. I have absolutely no clue what to do anymore and can't really do anything about it. My family is middle class but we tend to not have money for stuff like fresh greens and salad ingredients. Not anything fresh anyways....we also just kinda stopped doing anything family related. I just have little to no will for anything
There's nothing wrong with gaming a lot. Trust me. I play a lot more often than you said you do.

Just try to find something in life that makes you happy. If that's gaming, then that's okay.

Try to get your family to spend time together again. Trust me. As long as you make an effort to better yourself, no matter how small, life will get better.
I know this might sound cheesy but once you hit the bottom nowhere to go from there but up.
I game non-stop. I game when I'm bored. I game on the weekends. I game when there's silence in the room.

Gaming is the thing that fills the space between. If you are a gamer and you put in 8+ hours a day (I do), the only time this is a problem is if you don't know when to stop.

I game a lot, but I don't let it control my life.
If you feel like things are spiring out of hand, go for a walk after school.
Do some pushups when you wake up.
Hit up the school library (if you have one) and rent a book or two.

Just because you are in a financial situation that does not allow for ever expensive greens, does not mean you are in a spot you can't control.

If you'd like, I have a schedule I run by just to maintain balance in my life, and it still gives room for social activity.
Holy shit dude.

There's nothing I can really say. It wouldn't be fair to compare it to anything in my life or to say something selfish like "It gets better", but I think you're incredibly funny both in RP and OOC and I hope that despite circumstances, you have a future waiting for you. It's unfortunate that you have to be in this mess.

There's no advice I can give you, but just know that for little hope you have left, you have a place to belong. If we give you some sort of hope or place to belong, then know you got us.

Even if the Phansite is just a silly place to shitpost, whatever you are passionate about, keep it close and don't lose that passion. And if there's anyone in your life that makes you happy, keep them close.

Whatever is worth living for, live for that and even if the rest of the world has gone to hell, or the world ends tomorrow, you were something. All you need is one thing to make you whole. And whether things get better or not, you have that one thing that's worth living for.

Also, on a less sappy note, "video game addiction" is bullshit. It's only an addiction if it's harmful to your health or well being. I would kindly tell these people to fuck off.
Find what it is in life that makes you happy, then go for it. Doesn't matter what it is, just do it.
To be honest, whenever someone tells me I'm a gaming addict, I ask them if they'd rather I be addicted to hardcore drugs. That typically gets the point across that gaming isn't bad.
I really can't say anything tho. I hear all of the crap some people have to go through in life, and I feel really blessed compared to them. I feel really really bad for people who have to go through depression and anxiety, and all I can say is hang in there bro. You've got friends who'll always support you.
And don't let the word "addict" get to you. EVERYBODY is addicted to something.
I used to be in a very similar situation as yours. I was 200 pounds at 5'7 and I remember I asked a girl out to my homecoming and she said " no I don't like fat guys" and from that day on I told myself no one was ever going to call me fat again. In the beginning it was really hard getting into sports and physical activity but thankfully I had friends that joined sports with me so we pushed each other. I hope I don't come off as rude but if you can play video games you can still go to a gym and lift weight or run a track you don't need to be a foot ball star. And when it comes to diet it doesn't matter what you eat as long as you eat less than you burn off through excercise. I eat McDonald's like all the time and I lose weight regretfully.. if you find the drive to change your life around those excuses will disappear I promise you
I feel as though it's a combination of the school and expectations. Im awful at expectations and get stressed if it's too much. Sometimes I wonder if working 9-5 is easier than school. Im sorry for whining on what's just a fun site but....I just don't feel that I can depend on most people. My grandmother as well I feel (about to pull an edgegod) just doesn't....Understand. i play from like, 7 in the morning to midnight because I have nothing to do and it's my passion, I love doing it and I don't work. But she's pushing me to well....go out and work because other 16 year olds have jobs. And I'd be glad to work in I dunno, retail or something, stocking shelves as a minimum wage job but I'd like working from home doing....I dunno, sales?
You are yourself, everyone has the freedom to live however they want.
Don't let down what you feel passionate for because other's expect you to do it.
I think you should only worry about the expectations that you set for yourself. Working is fun depending on how you see it. I worked at a shitty sonic and it was terrible but cool af coworkers and occasionally sweet customers made it berable. Iv never known anyone around our age that works from home..
I have huge anxiety problems and depression too, dealing with people all day is out of the question. I work in the back of a store moving boxes and stuff. It's easy, keeps me in shape and I rarely have to talk to another person except to clock out and stuff. Other people work in the back too but we keep to ourselves usually.

Something like this would be ideal for a job if you aren't an extrovert.

As for working at home, sales would be good if you have the stock for it. You could also open a Twitch if that's something you're interested in, and keep a Patreon or Gamewisp so fans can help you out if they wish.