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Boss

Mm im on the road.

Taking a walk to clear my head after a big depressing talk with my gram

Mako-chan

Walks are good for relieving stress and stuff

MakotoYuki14

Depression strikes again

pure-anon

going for a walk is a very healthy way to deal with negativity!!

Shiza_Salad

whew boy. take care of yourself man. If you need to vent, I'm here for ya.

Boss

"beneath the mask" helps

MakotoYuki14

Viscous grandma?

enbycryptid

prolly just me but listening to smthn like nujabes usually helps me clear my head? hope ull feel better tho!!!

Boss

@MakotoYuki14 no, it's just that both our minds are stretched thin and we got into a screaming match....

Boss

My dog is with me. Little bastard eating grass....

MakotoYuki14

Cool story bro but my grandparents speak a different language

MakotoSenpai

Dogs always help! And humming some good beats always helps. It did help me when I was going through hell at my workplace!

MakotoYuki14

I'm so glad I'm still in school cause everyone is having problems at work

Boss

Im not happy, fuck school

Yu-Narukami

High school or college?

MakotoYuki14

I'm still in middle school

MakotoYuki14

Sucks a lot

Boss

Im in highschool, I don't know which they're in

MakotoYuki14

Surprisingly I'm popular with the ladies

Yu-Narukami

Middle school and High school are pretty rough.

Shiza_Salad

@MakotoYuki14 I wish I was... :(

Yu-Narukami

I literally almost failed out of high school because high school depressed me so much.

enbycryptid

gosh high school is soul-crushing,,, im fairly sure im failing some of my a levels but ive lost the ability to care

MakotoYuki14

Middle school is just boring as hell

Boss

Im just doing work. Ill probably fail but I couldn't care less

MakotoYuki14

I thought college would be soul-crushing

MakotoYuki14

Same here boss I don't give a shit about middle school

Yu-Narukami

College is actually kind of fun but it is a lot of work.

Boss

Yeah, that's the thing I keep hearing from college students, just do the work and turn it in and nobody will care what happens between then

Shiza_Salad

honestly, school just sucks in general. thank god ill be graduation within two years.

Mishimans

Middle school and High school are special kinds of hell

Shiza_Salad

*graduating

Kala-Nemi

high school is the worst, power through it buddy

as for college... it kind of depends on what kind of degree you're going for, but it's true that a lot of professors are pretty chill and nobody really gives much of a shit what you do as long as you turn stuff in

MakotoYuki14

Middle school is probably everyone's bad year

Boss

I just hate going to school

enbycryptid

@MakotoYuki14 considerin middle school isnt a thing where i live im gonna go w it maybe bein everyones bad year

MakotoYuki14

Wtf? Where do you live

Yu-Narukami

@Boss
Is it just the idea of having to go to a place every day and being forced into doing something monotonous with no clear purpose as to why?

enbycryptid

the uk does do middle school its primary school -> secondary/high school

MakotoYuki14

Hearing all the adults say you won't get anywhere in life without an "education" pisses me off the most because the people who built this country weren't educated

enbycryptid

crap i meant doesnt

MakotoYuki14

Lucky you I live in the dysfunctional U.S.

Yu-Narukami

@MakotoYuki14 True, it's more along the lines of if you don't get a degree people won't think you're educated. It's the only way to prove to people you know what you're doing.

Boss

@Yu-Narukami that and the foolishness of the staff

MakotoYuki14

I hate my middle school so much

MakotoYuki14

The only reason I want to go there is because I'm interested in a girl in my English class

Yu-Narukami

@Boss
I think I can understand that a little, I'm ADHD and slightly dyslexic. It can be frustrating when accommodations aren't made due to staff being lazy or just plain difficult.

MakotoYuki14

That sucks Yu but I have sucky grades

Yu-Narukami

Literally almost didn't graduate. Doesn't matter too much unless you want to go into a career that requires high credentials, otherwise, most people don't care where you get a degree from.

MakotoYuki14

I want to be a surgeon and live in Tokyo

Yu-Narukami

In that case, you might want to do well, at least in high school. Sucks but that's the only way to do it. Well, I say that but just doing well in community college for two years, can still get you into one of the bigger universities.

MakotoYuki14

I've always wanted to go to UCLA because I've been there so many times for doctor appointments

Yu-Narukami

Well, whatever you gotta do to get there then. It'll be no easy road though my friend.

Boss

I want to work from home, like I said in the vent thread. I'd like to stream and stuff like that and make money off of it. Or just....something I can do from home

MakotoSenpai

Have you tried giving it a go?
FF XIV might not be popular, but you can try other games, if you play any.

Hifumi Togo

I faced depression in my past thanks to abuse and it academically damned me between the ages of sixteen and twenty-one. I do understand some, but not all, of how you feel, and the difficulty of fighting perpetual melancholy and anhedonia. In response, I offer my efforts to help you once again walk your path independently and with gratuitous selfishness.

Yu-Narukami

@Boss
Not a bad way to go, actually I kind of want to get into writing partially for the same reason.

MakotoSenpai

@HifumiTogo Likewise.

MakotoYuki14

ABUSE?????? I WILL KILL THE PERSON WHO ABUSED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MakotoYuki14

Was it an adult?

Boss

@MakotoSenpai I play tons of games, my favorite games are FFXIV obviously, dark souls, but my favorite game of all time is dragon's Dogma. And I'd love to go in to writing, I haven't wrote a lot for you guys but I'd be willing. But I just....I don't want to transfer schools and lose my friends but it might be the only option. The school has started blaming me for their mistakes

MakotoSenpai

@Boss Much like in everything else, they aren't able to see themselves at fault, so they blame others. I say you go with what makes you happy, is trabsferring schools something that would make you happy and is at the same time not an hindrance due to your financial situation, then go for it. As for your friends, there's ways to keep contact. Discord for example, etc. I have friends from high school that still do gaming and stuff.

MakotoYuki14

Boss don't listen to the bastards in your life that are putting you down!

Yu-Narukami

High school friends are usually friends for life, at least the ones you're close with.

MakotoYuki14

Fucking adults think they rule the world

Yu-Narukami

They'll force you to stay in contact if they're close friends.

MakotoYuki14

But I would want to transfer out of my school

Shiza_Salad

@Boss even if you do end up transferring, you'll keep in touch, right? I mean, you do have my discord...

MakotoYuki14

I already have my "friends" phone numbers

Hifumi Togo

At least at 21 I only rule my own world.

Boss

Yeah, that's true. I just, eh...I don't have the cash to transfer. And it's hard to find a school where I could get the proper accommodations because the schools that are around where I live are private schools for the....well.... ne'er-do-wellsâ€‹

MakotoSenpai

I think writing is great. Why not try setting yourself a time to write everyday? Start to practise and perhaps one day you'll be able to get the education for it, and you'll be well prepared!

Boss

I can already write paragraph upon paragraph of things...if I wanted I could write a novel. One time I wrote 10 short scary stories because I was bored....

MakotoYuki14

That's a really good skill to have Boss

Shiza_Salad

writing edgy poems is fun too. guess how I know...

MakotoSenpai

Indeed!
If it helps, I think you should because then you'll be immersed in the story that you're creating and will be able to forget the bad feelings of everyday life. At least when I did write, it's what it felt, it may be different with you. 'Course, if you also need someone to talk to, I can throw my discord out.

Boss

If I had the ability to earn my grades by writing a story or two I'd do it. If I could get paid I'd do it. I want to go to college for writing and story shaping. I want to write fiction....

MakotoYuki14

I love drawing

Shiza_Salad

honestly though @Boss, I will fully support you in whatever you choose to do. I'm your friend. If you need help or advice, just ask me, alright?

Shiza_Salad

I'm here for you, man.

Boss

I wrote my discord on a lot of threads, but im up for new pals.
Boss, #0214
And on another note, I just don't write because I would rather use an actual PC but I don't have one....the click clack of a keyboard puts my mind at ease...

MakotoSenpai

I'll add you, should be easy to recognize me. What do you use to write at the moment?

Boss

Thanks @Shiza_Salad, but there's nothing you can do for me even at school. I love you dude but it's nothing you or the others can help with

MakotoYuki14

Sucks

Phantom_Trickster

I'm with you there boss. School sucked and has caused a number of issues. Went to community college for a year thanks to Job Corps but that didn't seem to improve my additude about it.

I also got into a screaming match with my dad that resulted in.....more serious issues.

All I can say is hang in there . High school ends at some point or another .

If you ever need an ear, you know where I drink my coffee.

MakotoYuki14

Ear rape