I'm glad to have more people, but keep in mind the Phansite isn't really a place to vent real life frustrations. It's a place for shit posting and taking a moment to forget that life exists outside these walls.

I get it...well the whole being a new user and venting part. But if i were you, let her be, wish her a good love life. Maybe the love for her can turn platonic?

If you respect her as a friend, move on.

Don't get me wrong, I respect her. She has made several terrible choices with men and I don't want her to get hurt. I know I'd never hurt her, but that's not what matters here. I stay silent and feel like I'm personally suffering so she doesn't have to deal with my emotional baggage on top of her own. I do respect her and I think she is a wonderful friend, just a small part of me will always love her in a romantic way, no matter what I do. This was a vent, an emotion dump, not a plea for attention or advice. I saw an anonymous crowd I didn't know and thought, for better or worse, I'd get the thoughts I had down instead of just cooped up in my brain. I am here to stay, however, because shit posting is life.

I am here to stay, however, because shit posting is life. my man

Ello! New people are always welcome! Hope you enjoy your time in hell. Now regarding your post, from what I'm reading it seems very unhealthy. If you can't live without her, and she is already in a relationship, you should get out, it's not going to end well. You said it yourself, you can't get her feelings to change. This video might help you, time stamp 5:51 https://youtu.be/6BU-Beof9hU?t=351